Been taking time to live Life

It's been a few months since my last post.  Life gets that way sometimes with me.  I think I'm going to stay with something for every and every, but instead I drop it the first few hours after life gets hard.  I shut down.  I want to come home just want to drop my daily problems off in my office and watch some TV.  My Queen and royal lineage get in the way of that plan, though.  Pretty soon, I am anger at my Queen and the royal lineage.  I'm not really anger at them, though.  I take it out on them for being right there in my way.  The thing that I am really angry at is life itself.  But what is life that I can take my frustrations out on it?  Life is me, right?  I am angry at myself. 

I used to just get really depressed when I was a teenager.  When life wasn't what I wanted I would pretend to be a tragic figure like a suicidal person.  Thing was I didn't really ever think about suicide.  That wasn't me, I needed to deal with my emotions.  I really just didn't have a way to explain the moods that came over me or the emotions that seemed to rule me. 

So, why am I angry at myself?  Is there an emotional blockage?  Probably, I have never been good with my own emotions.  It has gotten especially bad since I started working in law enforcement.  I don't work in a profession that gives you an emotional release.  Cops don't where there hearts on the outside.  Being a cop means controlling your emotions keeping them in check.  Why am I angry at myself and taking it out on my family? Because, I feel emotionally bottled up.  I don't know how to let off the pressure.

Camping Trip 2010

I just got the pictures back from my camping trip with my boys and my dad. We were only gone for a night but it was pretty fun. The youngest boy got sick the next morning so we had to cut things short but he said he had a lot of fun. If you look at the slideshow to the right you'll see so photos I took.

Time for a Change- Win a $25 REI gift card

I was Googling my blog title to see if there is any hope of finding it. I realized that the title "Raven's Writing Desk" (while cool to me) is not the most original title. Between the rock bands and website design companies, I could not find my blog. I know that I don't post enough to get noticed that way, but I really would like to get away from the title "Raven's Writing Desk."

So here's the deal, I am going to be holding a naming contest. I want your suggestion on titles for my blog. I will take comments on this blog plus comments on Facebook (click on the title above to get to my Facebook profile). The deadline for comments is July 4th. After Independence Day, I will randomly draw five titles to be voted on in an online poll. The winning title earns you a $25 gift card to REI. So, comment even better become a follower. Remember to leave me some contact info since I need to get a hold of you when you win.

LEGALESE: Please serious titles only. This is a family blog so keep it PG-13. Also, those of you whom I work with may notice that I have not really included much about my employer or specific employment. I would like to keep that out of the title to protect me and my family.